Insomnia

I cannot sleep, I cannot sleep,
For secrets wait amid the deep;
Secrets I do not wish to see,
Secrets that wear away at me.
I only wish that somehow you knew,
The damage that your secrets do.
That you could somehow understand,
That life is never what we planned.
So as the clock keeps ticking by,
And day floods light into the sky,
In reveries I sit alone,
My stomach filled with heavy stone.
And as I sit with bloodshot eyes,
I begin to realise,
It is your fault I cannot sleep,
For it's your secrets that I keep.
I cannot sleep.
I must not sleep.

By Rachael Allen

New Blog!

Hi everybody,

I know it's been a while, it's been a very tumultuous time for me recently with a big move a new course and a new business for which I have a new blog.

Inspiral Crafts

It's still in it's beginning stages so bear with me, but i fyou guys could navigate over there, check it out, and if you like what you see, please follow. I'm planning on posting works in progress as well as new listings, inspirations, ideas and maybe even tutorials, who knows! It would mean so much to me to see you all there.

Also I promise to follow up with a normal blog soon.

Love and Light
Rach

Etsy store

So just a little bit of self-promotion ...

This is my new Etsy store. Have a look please!

I have a discount coupon for mates rates if you are interested in anything so let me know.

http://www.etsy.com/shop/InspiralCrafts?ref=pr_shop

It's been a long time...

It's been so long since I last posted on here ...

So so so so long.
So long in fact, that I really expected myself to close it when I opened it up just now.

But things in my life are changing in a very big way and I think that this blog may let me stay in contact with the handful of people that read it. People who I love, that are important to me, that I will miss.

I took big steps today.

Firstly, I closed my Yahoo account. Doesn't seem big? Well it was the last means of communication that I had with people who were once a major part of my life. I used to check that inbox many times a day, then only once a day, then once a week, then once a month until now, when I have finally given up waiting for that e-mail that is never going to come. Well I have finished waiting for you, all of you. That door is closed now, this ship has sailed. And it is your loss.

I also recieved news that an application I submitted for an apartment in Sydney was succesful, so it is off to the big smoke for me and Toddy. Toddy is going to study concurrent programs, a Diploma of Architectural Technology and a Masters of Design Science (Audio and Acoustics). He is so very very smart it astounds me. I manged to beat off 650 other applicants to get into the Sydney College of Arts to continue my study into visual arts. So Toddy and I will both be graduates of the University of Sydney, something I never really expected but I am happy with none-the-less.

I also have been packing and letting go of possessions today, something that is very hard for me. I'd like to say that home is wherever my loved ones are but in all honesty, feeling at home for me has an awful lot to do with having the things I love around me. Call me materialistic but as someone who as a child has moved more times then most adults, home is a difficult concept.

So its a new life all in all for me.
And my Toddy.

And I am so grateful.

Where to stand

What is going on???

I'm thinking a lot about friends at the moment, those lost, those gained, those who I am no longer sure about where I stand with.

I am leaving for Sydney at the end of this year and I've decided I need to know where I stand with people because I need closure, and because I need to feel that I am not running away.

I really need a little confirmation that this path I'm beginning on will be good for me and for Toddy. That this big leap I'm making is for the best. So if anyone has any insights for the cards, or guides, or intuition, or anything really please let me know...

Where do I stand with you?
Where do you stand with me?
Do we know??

I should be asleep right now

I should be asleep right now.
Soooooooooooo tired.

But I have to finish a sketch that is taking me forever and yet looks much better when not viewed up close.

sigh

Oh well it'll be done and that is the main thing I guess.

R.I.P. Laura

May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
The rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of his hand.

May God be with you and bless you:
May you see your children's children.
May you be poor in misfortune,
Rich in blessings.
May you know nothing but happiness
From this day forward.

May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the warm rays of sun fall upon your home
And may the hand of a friend always be near.

May green be the grass you walk on,
May blue be the skies above you,
May pure be the joys that surround you,
May true be the hearts that love you.

Gentle rest, Laura.
May the Goddess keep you safe until you return again.